"I think the biggest lesson I had to learn with Instagram and something that I tried to teach people too because even now like the TikTokers like I said like the all of me these famous TikTok girls with like six million Instagram followers like I basically just like you like I learned to face you by looking at your you know what I mean so it's like I'm always saying to them like comparison is a root of all evil yeah you're scrolling through your Instagram saying why can I be this bitch why can I be this bitch why can I look like this bitch why can't my hair be like hers why can I wear like hers why can't I date this guy like her why can't I like you're always gonna fall short in your mind you like you know what I mean it's just like always remember Instagram is everyone's highlight real it always will be you're showing what you want to show and you can't compare yourself to people's best moments" — Tana Mongeau
"I think the whole core issue of it and so then he's like grabbing my blood and just like smearing it like all over me we're fucking my face blood and to the sound like that was hot and then there's like a lot of people that are like that's that's the line that's the draw on my face and we're both like to someone else is no hot and then you like slurp his con with a mix of your blood perfect little mix of a bloody Mary and your mouth your blood into his mouth he spits your blood back into your mouth and you swallow his come with his own spit your blood mix with his spit back with his come come on perfect combination we love it all honestly I don't want to end the other way now" — Tana Mongeau
"I think for me my biggest insecurity has been untraining my brain from like innately thinking that because I've always been self-deprecating to like my first like catchphrase ever was literally just saying I hate myself and just being I say it all the time because you and that it was like me being like wait that was your first catch ever I would just be like I fucking hate myself and then everyone started doing it and then I was like oh my god like and then you're like wait now I like really need to stop." — Tana Mongeau
The episode begins with Tana Mongeau addressing the long-standing tension between herself and Alex Cooper, stemming from a past incident where Mongeau failed to appear for a scheduled podcast recording. Both acknowledge the rocky start and the subsequent years of misunderstanding, with Mongeau expressing regret and Cooper highlighting how Mongeau's absence inadvertently contributed to the podcast's growth by forcing a focus on solo content. This serves as a metaphor for the episode's broader themes of overcoming past mistakes and finding unexpected opportunities for growth.
The conversation then shifts to Tana Mongeau's difficult childhood, marked by physical abuse, parental neglect, and lack of structure, particularly in Las Vegas. She recounts her early exposure to drugs and alcohol as coping mechanisms and an escape from her turbulent home life, detailing her journey from dropping out of high school to finding solace and purpose on YouTube. The discussion touches on the corrupting influence of early fame, the pressures of maintaining an online persona, and the psychological toll of constant scrutiny, particularly in relation to her past relationships and public image.
Further into the episode, Mongeau and Cooper explore themes of sexuality, relationship dynamics, and the impact of public perception. They discuss Mongeau's self-identification as pansexual, her experiences dating both men and women, and the challenges of navigating these relationships under intense public observation. The conversation becomes increasingly graphic as they delve into sexual experiences, including discussions about performance, consent, and the normalization of certain acts within sexual encounters. The dialogue also touches on Mongeau's journey towards self-acceptance and her ongoing efforts to untrain years of self-deprecating thought patterns.