Call Her Daddy
Call Her Daddy
"I felt like I was already became an outcast in my school and like in high school. Like I was new. I was a new kid as a freshman. Like no one's ever seen me before. I moved to a different town. And I left my previous school because I you know I felt like I didn't belong there. And I was kind of like you know alone in like outcasten. And so I moved to a different high school. And I was like everyone like loves like the new kids you know at first. And then I yeah sophomore year is like downhill." — Nessa Barrett
"My brain basically like unwillingly attaches itself to someone and when that happens like that's all you can think about and you'll do anything to make that person happy and they become your life and identity at that point and um it turns romantic because it's so hard to identify the difference between that you know when you when you're so in love with someone it's like they become your favorite person but with BPD it's like different." — Nessa Barrett
"I felt like I still have just like so much to do and I I want to live for Cooper and you know I just see life so differently now and I feel like now and the first time in forever I've been open to like taking getting help seriously and I've just like gone through waves where I you know I hit rock bottom and then I get help and then as soon as I start feeling good again like I stop because I think I'm fine but it's like not true and I just realize it's all about like maintenance and like they'll keep and like I just have to continue going." — Nessa Barrett
Nessa Barrett recounts her early life, marked by numerous concussions from sports that led to significant brain injuries, forcing her to abandon her athletic career. This transition, coupled with childhood trauma and family difficulties, contributed to profound mental health struggles, including anxiety and depression, beginning at a young age. She details a particularly difficult period in high school where she experienced bullying and isolation due to her burgeoning social media fame.
The conversation delves into Barrett's experience with social media, highlighting the pressure to curate a persona and the emotional toll of seeking external validation. She discusses her past relationships, including a high-profile one with fellow TikTok star Josh Richards, and reflects on how the performative nature of online content can blur the lines between genuine connection and public perception. Barrett also candidly discusses her diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), explaining it as a response to childhood trauma rather than a chemical imbalance, and the intense emotional experiences that accompany it.
A significant portion of the episode is dedicated to the tragic loss of her best friend and fellow TikTok star, Cooper Noriega. Barrett shares the devastating impact of his passing, her struggles with grief, and a subsequent suicide attempt that led to her re-admission into a mental health treatment facility. Despite these profound challenges, Barrett emphasizes her renewed commitment to mental health, her faith, and her desire to use her platform to support others, finding purpose in her music and advocating for self-care and ongoing support.